alli want is a fun, fair game. i just want to practice and get better, but no one seems to want to let me.
i just dont get it. i try my best not to get annoyed, pissed off, or flat out malignant at the actions of other players, trying so hard desperately to win. almost every single game, there is that one guy, his ego so far up in the clouds, that makes a huge fatal error, and blows the game for me. and if it's not that, i'm somehow always magically behind in farm or gold, even to people who aren't even making efforts to last hit. it just doesn't make any sense.
from the start of the game, you have these autolocking lane callers. they're usually the catalyst for failure in the game, usually i can tell right away, as they make comp choices that are -so- hard to work around, whether the champion be easily countered, has no lane presence, or generally don't work in that lane. (i.e. a draven trying to solo top.) god forbid you tell these people advice on how to win their lane opponent, or ask them to be more flexible, all you get is a barrage of vitriol about your mother, or repetitious vomiting of "u mad?" just not two games ago, i had this rengar who was adamant about finishing a trinity force first, while soloing vs jayce. he out right refused to get any armor, blamed the jungler, and allowed jayce to farm 3 major items before 20 minutes. gee, i wonder which team won?
then there are these nonsensical laning games, where people are performing adequately, but try as i might, even the most passive of enemies (who doesn't attempt to last hit, mind you) out farms me. it doesn't make any sense, even when i'm counterpicked, but have the dude on the ropes, they'll flat out refuse to trade or last hit to the point the lane goes to the turret. or they'll leave the lane, so i will too, and by the time i'm back, they've some how pulled a 20+ lead off of 1 wave. and don't get me started on stupid junglers who farm after failed ganks.
few games ago, i was top as kayle, against lee sin in a blind normal. even bullying him out of the lane, last hitting as much as i possibly can, what happens? idiot jungler ganks, and makes it fairly obvious. not only does the tryndamere fail to blow lee's summoners, he pushes my lane, not once, but 4 times.
then there's team strategy. you always get that one guy, who you can tell must always play solo queue, who thinks he knows best. they try to make horrible engagements, rather farm or buy items instead of push, try to baron with half the team... why? they don't communicate, and when they do, it's more insults.
how can i not be expected to fly off the handle at these people?! it's utterly ridiculous! wins lately come from enemy teams raging or feeding off the bat, and the game is rarely fair or fun, because of that ONE person who always bones us. i mean, even if i'm having an off game, which who doesn't, i still try my hardest. i don't afk, leave, or perform the quitter/dumb ass "gg" in /all when im thoroughly disgusted by my team.
i'm inhibited by lane callers
i'm inhibited by autolockers
i'm inhibited by feeders, trolls, afkers
i'm inhibited by poor team / lack of an effort to communicate(tion)
i'm inhibited by reasons i can't even comprehend when the enemy refuses to farm.
all i want is a fair, fun game, where i can relish in victory, and learn when i lose. not something that leaves me with a headache and wanting to uninstall upon seeing that glaring defeat at 20 minutes that the enemy clearly didn't earn. not something that leaves me blaring profanity after 15 minutes of being constantly assaulted and harassed, or trolled even with the mute button on.
why does it have to be this way? games are supposed to be fun...