op is going to forget how to talk if he doesnt see another human being soon

the worst part of my week was realizing i like that one 2 chains/drake song

wait actually i uninstalled league about 3 days ago. but that was probably the best choice ive ever made

I believe my father is afraid he will die soon.

And I believe he is right, it is very sad.

He was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes because of his rampant consumption of sugar.

He did it to keep his blood pressure up because he has a congenital heart defect which keeps his blood pressure dropping constantly.

Sigh... he didn't tell me directly, but I sense he doesn't plan to live more than a few more months.

Just remembered earlier this week I have my subject tests in chem and math2 Saturday morning. Welp, gtg fail.

I have been living in russia for the past few months as a gay man, and let me tell you it's not easy.

Since I've been here, my grandma has died; my friend from my californian university died (maybe even killed himself), my grandpa died. My other grandma is about to have her breasts, ovaries, and fallopian tubes removed as she has cancer. They discovered that my family has "the cancer gene" and so I'm probably going to have to check myself when I get back. I haven't been going out as much, and have been generally exhausted.
I've been pretty good at keeping my sexuality secret though but I'm going to have to talk in class about what I look for in my future wife in front of class this monday. Mind you professors largely grade you on how much they like you out here, so aside from risking getting beaten up by the russians, I would also risk my grade.
so that's the direction my week's going. It would be funny if not for these past few mishaps.


and yes I know this is dramatic, but I haven't really been able to talk to anyone about this, so it's nice to post it here

I died.

Edit: Again.