Originally Posted by Deadmond View Post
How does it feel? Do you know when that happened? Can you notice any difference in your thought process before and after your injury?
I never got "injured" and i do know what happened. When I was 12 I lived in a room that would heat up sometimes upwards of 120 degrees, and I lived here for a year. No airconditioning, no nothing. I just wasn't getting enough water i guess and i just got so dehydrated on a day to day basis that my brain started getting damaged. Nobody knew what the cause was, and when I pleaded to get taken to the doctor the first time I was dismissed with barely a glance and any chance of getting back my cognitive function was shattered. Recently, maybe 2 months ago, I went to the doctor's again, not gonna be told im just hallucinating or whatever (2 years later from when i was 12, 14 now) and to make a long story short, i got diagnosed with brain damage.
Imagine every time you try to form a coherent thought a knife just slices through your mind and you either forget what you were thinking about or you're at a loss for words. I forget things i'm doing as i'm doing them a massive amount of times a day, I have no individual interests. I used to really actually enjoy doing things, but now I do it just to kill time because I just wanna kill myself I have depression. What makes it 200% worse is that I used to be extremely smart, I had my IQ tested at an extremely young age and got 178 (15 higher than stephen hawking), now i'm lucky if I'm even average in intelligence. fml, it's all because of ****ing retarded people in positions of authority delivering verdicts to people without a second thought. **** the world