A few of you are telling me that I should stop caring about my rating and just play for fun. I DO play to have fun, that's the object of playing video games for me to begin with. However, with whatever I do, I want to excel at it. I think everyone has that urge to be good at something and they want some recognition to back that up, whether it be people praising your name or some stupid number next to your name. When I play, I play to win. I don't rage hardcore when I lose, I evaluate my mistakes and try to see what I can do to play better and increase my chances of winning. I'm not saying I'm a pro at this game, I've already discussed the things I need to work on. My problem is that I KNOW without a doubt, i'm better than the rating I have.
I feel like I should start recording my games and posting them here so you guys can see the throws I'm talking about. You seriously wouldn't believe it.