Dear fellow summoners,
During the somewhat large ban that was laid out a few days ago I was only somewhat surprised to find that my name was in the hat. I wanted to apologize to any summoners on my team or the enemy team during the games that I had gotten frustrated with or lost faith in.
It's never quite acceptable to berate someone due to me losing my patience with someone flaming another teammate or myself. I personally believe that there's never an instance where it would be considered acceptable to verbally abuse another teammate despite what they may or may not be doing. There were a few games where I had gotten frustrated (I found this through the e-mail I was sent) and obviously gave up.
As an example, one game I was playing Elise top lane and got completely dominated by their Jayce. Around 25 minutes in I had given up, without saying a single thing in chat other than the usual mia's. I had sold all my items since they were in our base and it was a clear loss, and I bought, with what money I had, nothing but Phages. I don't believe it was justified, because one should never do such a thing. I think we should fight on until one team's nexus is destroyed. There were a couple of these instances, and I am in complete agreement with my ban.
Despite the slim chance, I'd like to give an explanation* for my behavior, for those of you who might have unfortunately been on the receiving end. However, this isn't an excuse:
I work graveyard in a restaurant. People can be extremely, extremely rude when it comes to their food. The nights are long, the work is exhausting, and there's little to no time to relax. After these exceptionally long days at work, I tend to have less patience than usual. I play league for fun, but there are those one nights where I just can't seem to tolerate anything. And I sincerely apologize for that. It's unfortunately true that the anonymity that the internet provides sometimes gets the best of us. And for that, I'm sorry. I'd like to thank Riot for giving me a time to reflect on the decisions I've made and help improve my game play and interaction with other summoners.
I'd also like to thank anyone that took the time to read this, I appreciate it.
*Not meaning it's acceptable